Love art.?

For one time, i need to be honest. I love art! I love drawing! I'm learing graphic design and having a plan to stick my future job with it. But honestly, i don't think i was born for only drawing. I mean, yes, i love drawing, but that doesn't mean i'm good at drawing and even when people think i'm a little bit good my teachers still say no. But it's ok! I'm still good, i'm still fine with this. Because i don't go to school for scores. I learn cause i want to know what i haven't know. I learn for knowlegde. But i wish the teachers at school could just teach me and stop judging or comparing me. This is art! We don't have a rule, we don't have a standard. We never be able to make it clearly or to answer the question what beauty really is. Everyone have their own standards, everyone see the beauty by their different way! So i just wish the teachers could just skip the "Giving scores part" and move to the "Teaching part". Seripusly, what the hell is the school students come and do whatever the shit on their owns, and then the teachers appear give them their marks and disappear after that without any explaination!?! Hah! That's quite of ridiculous but sad at the same time. I go to school, but i learn nothing. I know,working on my own is good, trying to get the best score is good, but hey, what's all of these about if we just learn nothing from the people we call teachers? So, yes, one of my all reasons, i love art, but i'm definatelly not a good artist, of course, will never be the best. I tried, ok? I did triy and i'm still trying. But sometimes, it feels like i'm trying for nothing. My mind my feelings my money my time? I don't think the good scores at school really worth it. And yes, i have to say it! I don't think i will spend the rest of my life living with art. It's just, my love for art is not big enough to sacrified everything for an artist's life. I'm not an artist! I'm sorry to say that, but i'm really not. I don't love it unconditionally! And i won't die for it! I still have a lot of interests in my life. I love animals. I love cats. I love nature. I love travelling. I love watching tv series or movie. I love English. I love foreign languages. I love writing. To be honest, i even love writing more than drawing. I wonder, is writing some kind of art? Well, God know! I just want to make sure, beside art aka drawing, i still have a lot of stuff to do. And if you asked me to draw my last great work and then die being famous after i finish it, i'm sorry, hell no!