3 COMPLETED FICTIONS OMG!!!!

Ok, didn't plan to come back, but guess what? I just reread all my notes and i found my 3 FICTIONS  are already completed!
Don't count the ones i lost after my old tablet died, well, i have 3 conpleted fic, waiting for me to show them here!
Wow!
Still try my best working on another fic and try all my fucking luck to find the lost ones, no hope, but still try!
So... That's all. I'll vanish again! Bye noone!

THE WORST PARTS OF ME

1. Never forgive. Never forget.
2. Sometimes i image how i kill you and how am i interested in it.
3. Can kill for my own will.
4. Liar.
5. Never do anything with all my heart.
6. Souless.
7. Cruel.
8. Jealous bitch.
9. Selfish bitch.
10. Thousand faces with thousand dramatic background stories.
11. Paranoid.
12. I hate human!
13. Deceitful.
14. Dishonest.
15. I'm a fucking psychopath.

Dear: somebody i used to know.

FUCK ALL THIS SHIT! I LIKE HER! I CARE ABOUT HER! I COULD BE WITH HER ANYTIME SHE NEEDS ME AND I WILLING TO DO EVERYTHING FOR HER!
I ONLY REALIZE THAT COULD BE SO HURT WHEN SHE SAID HER GOODBYE!
IT'S NOT A FAREWELL MY STUPID FUCKING MIND!
BUT WHY THE TRUTH THAT SHE WILL NOT AND WILL NEVER BE WITH ME LIKE WE USED TO BE COULD HURT ME THIS MUCH!
YOU HAVE TO KNOW HOW MUCH I HURT THINKING ABOUT HER. WHILE I'M TELLING MYSELF YOU AND ALL YOUR SHITTY THINGS NEVER WORTH MY TEARS I STILL HAVE TO TRY SO HARD TO HOLD ME TEARS.
YOU DON'T AND YOU NEVER WORTH MY TEARS, WHY IT STILL HURTS SO BAD LIKE NOW?
I LOVE YOU MORE THAN YOU COULD KNOW. I ALWAYS SHOW. BUT EVEN I DIDN'T KNOW. I CAN'T JUST BLAME ONLY YOU.
BUT IT HURTS!
IT HIT ME SO HARD AND NOW I'M FEELING THE PAIN RUNNING THROUGH MY VEINS DAMMIT I SHOULDN'T I MUST NOT FEEL IT!!!
I JUST LET YOU IN. SO CLOSE. SO CLOSE THAT I DIDN'T KNOW YOUR LEAVING COULD DO THIS HARM TO ME...
I JUST PUT DOWN ALL THE BARRIERS TO YOU AND NOW I HAVE TO FILL THE HOLE YOU DIGGED ALL BY MYSELF FUCK ALL OF THIS I WAS JUST A FUCKING STUPID INNOCENCE BITCH!
I WAS JUST A REPLACEMENT, EVEN WORSE, WASN'T I? 
I SHOULDN'T LET YOUR FUCKING ASS IN!
I WISH I DIDN'T LET YOU IN!!!!!
HOW THE FUCK IN THIS WORLD CAN I SOLVE ALL OF THE SHITTY THIBGS RIGHTNOW!
YOU MIGHT BE HAPPY...
I WISH YOU AND THOSE CUNTS ALL ROT IN HELL! I WISH ALL THE WORST WILL HAPPEN TO YOU ALL SO I WILL FINALLY HAVE MY FINAL LAUGH AND REST IN PEACE AT LEAST FOR ONCE!

Ho hey!

Ok, so i'm back. But only for a while and then i'll vanish again.
So... Let start at where we left. After a shock names Supernatural season final, i'm back to my blog again. It's hard to tell again bout what i felt after that episode. Just know one thing that only SHOCK. And i had to carry the shock blanket for a long time...
So now, i'm coming back. Well, just want you to know, i'm working on another new projects (again). I'm working on 2 of them, even the truth is 1 of them is still in the waiting room.
The first project i'm working is another fiction series written by me. Well, it calls "VORTEX". I want to post a new entry to talk about it, or maybe just wait for my next entry if it could be... You've already known that i had dropped a huge of fictions i wrote during the last year. "The game of truth", "Bartholomew Busted",  a short series about a girl and her imgine angel based on my life... Bla bla and bla bla... Well, that was a shame... I tried so hard working on them but it hard to make it right, i mean, there were a lot of plans, but no direct goal. So now, i change the way i work. I make another new and more clarity plan for this project. I already knew what i have to write, how i do it, how the stories go... So, just hope this will work well..
The second project, well, i'd like to call it "Ideas runner". Why? Long story! But unfortunately, i'm too busy those days to start working on it. It's still a plan, a name on a waiting list. But i'm really excited about it. Hope i can start it soon.
So... That's all announments i want to share. Thanks for noone's listening.

Untitle

Seriously doubt what kind of life are we living in now? What the hell is human? The one who bullies the weaker but keeps hidong behind the screen and talks like a sane? Humanity? What the fuck is humanity? That's people who leave their comments on someone's who was bullied something like: "We always follow the crowd dude but poor you!" and then leave without minding and forget everything just happened. And what the fuck is bullier? All of us! All of us are bullier, guys! Do you even own your brain? What the fuck is just happening in there? Still they work? Or they were just completely dead and filled with pronography or something else?
Guys, wake up! You can't not control how people think and what people want! You are NO GOD! You are definately not a sane like you think you are! This is a free world, most of us are living in a free country, we have ALL THE RIGHT to do whatever (but) legal we want! And yes, even if we do things illegal, noone have the right to tell us "you must", except your parents. You will pay for what you've done but it all by yourself!
Let me make thos point clear! I just read some random comment on the internet. You know, same sex marriage is now accept in the whole America. That's a wonderfil news, of course! Most of us, even we aren't living in Usa, still feel glad of it. Of course, we do celebrate. We use the app on facebook, change pur avatars into something rainbow. What the hell is wrong with that? NOTHING! You live in Usa? Lucky you. We live in another place, whatever, we're still happy for that. But you know what, i read a comment, just one comment, and it said something like, ppl just follow the crowd. That shit is happening in another far far away country and we have no business to do with it! Get over this shit, fuckers! " Something like that, i just try to summar it. And yes, others are angry! They reply that comment, and for Gpd's sake, the owner answer all the replies with a bad attitude. And yes, the story keeps going on and on.
I don't understand. Of course we follow the crowd, we have nothing to do with that, but what about you? What the fuck on earth are you doing there? You hate it? You don't like it? You think it wrong? That's your point of view. NOONE CAN STOP YOU HAVING YOUR POINTS. But look, you hate it? Why have to suck your ass there and start a fight with an angry crazy crowd when it really, really, really brings no good to you. Ppl laughed at ypur face, ppl blamed you, ppl yelled at ypu, ppl said you're a cunt. Are you happy for that? Do you like that? Why the hell someone, came from middle of nowhere just popped in, left a lot of shit and than received even more than what he left...? And why the fuck other ppl who still have a clarified mind had to give the shit to that point if they thought it's nonsense or stupid?
I DON'T UNDERSTAND ANY OF THIS! Why you have tp spend time hating something when you can do something so much easier that's stop caring and pretent like we don't see that shit?
Bullying? Who's the bullier and who's the bullied? We think we're the victims but fuck no, until we're still hiding behind the computer screen, we are still the bullier. You start the fight or not, you're still wide up with that shit. God, i don't understand why they have to show their hate. They have all the right to show their hate. But seriousely? Anti fan in a "fans jam"? Are you crazy? Or you want to be popular by some scandals? Or you just miss a taste of shit so you have to pay a visit and taste it again from the crowd who are standing opposite your side.
You're an ant try to swim over the ocean, honey. It always ends up dying...

Dear friend

It's funny to take the point that there's some people are being to hard in the other's attitude. I mean, come on! You're not my mon,  don't tell me what i must do. You might think you're special somehow so you asked my brother to greet you in the most polite way like you're his great great super great grandma everytime you pay us a visit. Sorry to say, our house, our rules. You're just a friend so be okay when we treat you like a friend. Don't ask to be our grandma or something, even blood doesn't get that polite. We be kind to you so just receive it and show us the same. Ask for more? Sorry! But who the fuck are you. My family doesn't like your family and we're glad about it. My parents know so well how to teach their children to be the good ones and they don't fucking need your advises thank you for that anyway. We have our rules and we know how it works. You're so nice telling us your feelings and thinkings but i think it's time you learn to know who you are and what's your responsibilities. Your family wouldn't do that? Fine! That's yours of course has to be different than mine! You work their way? Good! And i work mine! Don't try to teach me or teach us what is right and what is wrong. Maybe he was just careless and he never thought you would be that hard so he didn't pay much attention to greeting you im the best way. But you're not so much older than him so you have no right asking him to greet you as his grandma or something. He's still so polite and kind when strangers come and nothing you have to bother bout him! We know how it works, my dear. And you are, so sorry to say that, but not so much but a stranger to our family. I'm glad that you still care and mind, but does it deserve to ask some impolite question to me like you just did? I'm so sorry! But you talked like my family and my parents doesn't know how to teach their son. You talked like we know nothing just not any shit and you and your family are the best at teaching so you have all the right to tell us what to do and what don't. The way your parents taught you? Good way? Fine! Keep it to your children. We don't need yours kindness or your care! That's our business not yours! Your attitude has been so good so you can't except it whatever that's your problem! We mind how we do and we don't need your care.
Have to say this cause i was so mad at you while you tried to convince me bout my brother's bad attitude and even when i tried to explain you just shaked them off and held tide to your hate in the first sight. I don't know if you really feel that or not but this is how i take a story and you make me look at you like a bad guy! Dear, i'm glad you're my friend and i'm glad you care about my family. It's just, good things but not in a good place goog time and good reason. Sometimes you have to shake pff your old rules and follow the temporary new rules when you take a step in someone's house. Learn this. You're not the button of this universe don't ever, ever command anyone to greet ypu like one. And beside that, except the other's, specially the younger problem in attitude. Look at youself in the mirror and ask if you used to be like them or not. And then act later, that's must be better.
I'm nothing more but a friend of you but still hope you could change your mind even though you may talk back to me something like "teach me a lesson? Who the hell you think you are?"

4 days, keep counting down. We're all gonna die!!!!

I have to write all this shit down so if one day not so far they all become true i will be able to say i regret nothing from following the show and ship my otp.
I have no fucking idea what is going to happen in the season finale, but sweeties, i know what will i do after it.
I'm reading a lot of metas said that Cas will die. If i was who i was a yrs ago, i would drive mad. But me today, after Charlie left, i opened my eyes. I would hurt so bad so so so fucking bad if Cas die, i could see it so far. I used to be a hard shipping of Delena. Almost 4 yrs of my life, i only shipped Delena the most. But things changed and i alowly left the show. Just yesterday, i watched the season finale of tvd ss6. Nina Dovbert said her goodbye to tvd and also her character Elena Gilbert. Well, so my old ship Delena just sunk. I couldn't tell i didn't want Elena leave until i saw the scene of goodbye. Elena was so annoyed since the ss4 but i did never give up on my ship. I still shipped it so hard. So freaking hard. And with the ending like that, it hurt like hell. So i can imagine myself one day when it happens with Destiel. I can see how much it could hurt me and the rest of spn fandom if Cas dies.
But let's think again. Maybe it could be a good sign. I could find some reason to quit the show. I never take anyone who said they would quit the show if their fav characters got killed off are not the real fans. I mean, they are real fan. And because they are real fan, they would hurt after their favs died. U can see it clearly after Charlie's death, the whole fandom really got crazy and some really left the play. So there's nothing to prove i'm not a real fan if i left after cas died. I was real fan, i WAS. I just got enough. That's all. The show isn't be the best like it used to be, slowly, but we've all seen that. And i have some last reasons for me to keep watching something i don't really like everyweek. Cas and Destiel are the reasons. And i would be so hurt and pissed at the same time if those reasons just gone. So leave the show is just some not so impressed stuff we would see. Just like how i said bye bye to tvd.
And what if the good things come? I mean, what if Cas will not die? Well, keep hanging myself on the ship and facing with all the upcoming suffering things. Right?