Dear: somebody i used to know.

FUCK ALL THIS SHIT! I LIKE HER! I CARE ABOUT HER! I COULD BE WITH HER ANYTIME SHE NEEDS ME AND I WILLING TO DO EVERYTHING FOR HER!
I ONLY REALIZE THAT COULD BE SO HURT WHEN SHE SAID HER GOODBYE!
IT'S NOT A FAREWELL MY STUPID FUCKING MIND!
BUT WHY THE TRUTH THAT SHE WILL NOT AND WILL NEVER BE WITH ME LIKE WE USED TO BE COULD HURT ME THIS MUCH!
YOU HAVE TO KNOW HOW MUCH I HURT THINKING ABOUT HER. WHILE I'M TELLING MYSELF YOU AND ALL YOUR SHITTY THINGS NEVER WORTH MY TEARS I STILL HAVE TO TRY SO HARD TO HOLD ME TEARS.
YOU DON'T AND YOU NEVER WORTH MY TEARS, WHY IT STILL HURTS SO BAD LIKE NOW?
I LOVE YOU MORE THAN YOU COULD KNOW. I ALWAYS SHOW. BUT EVEN I DIDN'T KNOW. I CAN'T JUST BLAME ONLY YOU.
BUT IT HURTS!
IT HIT ME SO HARD AND NOW I'M FEELING THE PAIN RUNNING THROUGH MY VEINS DAMMIT I SHOULDN'T I MUST NOT FEEL IT!!!
I JUST LET YOU IN. SO CLOSE. SO CLOSE THAT I DIDN'T KNOW YOUR LEAVING COULD DO THIS HARM TO ME...
I JUST PUT DOWN ALL THE BARRIERS TO YOU AND NOW I HAVE TO FILL THE HOLE YOU DIGGED ALL BY MYSELF FUCK ALL OF THIS I WAS JUST A FUCKING STUPID INNOCENCE BITCH!
I WAS JUST A REPLACEMENT, EVEN WORSE, WASN'T I? 
I SHOULDN'T LET YOUR FUCKING ASS IN!
I WISH I DIDN'T LET YOU IN!!!!!
HOW THE FUCK IN THIS WORLD CAN I SOLVE ALL OF THE SHITTY THIBGS RIGHTNOW!
YOU MIGHT BE HAPPY...
I WISH YOU AND THOSE CUNTS ALL ROT IN HELL! I WISH ALL THE WORST WILL HAPPEN TO YOU ALL SO I WILL FINALLY HAVE MY FINAL LAUGH AND REST IN PEACE AT LEAST FOR ONCE!